50/50
Baby,
Once again I sat in a doctors office, pregnant, bleeding and scared. After a very unsure ultrasound, the dr says to us "well, you can come back in a week for another ultrasound, but it's a 50/50 chance on whether the baby will make it"
WHY?!?!?
Why did God give us this pregnancy just to potentially take it away again? I know it will be worth all the pain if we are able to hold you one day, but in the meantime, this just flat out sucks. I literally just got done writing down a whole list of specific prayer requests for this pregnancy, and not seeing blood was one of my first ones. And the very next day there it was, blood.
We've had two ultrasounds at this point, and neither of them had very good news. Although my blood work is still fantastic, so it's very confusing. All I wanted was a smooth pregnancy, but for some reason that's not what God has planned. I'm trying to get to a point where I don't question His ways, but it's times like this where it's very hard.
I've seen His hand in our life in so many ways, so I know His ways are higher than mine. But I'm just praying so hard that two miscarriages are not a part of His plan for us...
I love you so much, and always will, even if I never hold you on this earth.
-mommy
Once again I sat in a doctors office, pregnant, bleeding and scared. After a very unsure ultrasound, the dr says to us "well, you can come back in a week for another ultrasound, but it's a 50/50 chance on whether the baby will make it"
WHY?!?!?
Why did God give us this pregnancy just to potentially take it away again? I know it will be worth all the pain if we are able to hold you one day, but in the meantime, this just flat out sucks. I literally just got done writing down a whole list of specific prayer requests for this pregnancy, and not seeing blood was one of my first ones. And the very next day there it was, blood.
We've had two ultrasounds at this point, and neither of them had very good news. Although my blood work is still fantastic, so it's very confusing. All I wanted was a smooth pregnancy, but for some reason that's not what God has planned. I'm trying to get to a point where I don't question His ways, but it's times like this where it's very hard.
I've seen His hand in our life in so many ways, so I know His ways are higher than mine. But I'm just praying so hard that two miscarriages are not a part of His plan for us...
I love you so much, and always will, even if I never hold you on this earth.
-mommy
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