Periods suck, period.
Baby,
I don't even know where to begin, or if this is even a good idea, but I figured I will give it a shot. I have pictured you in my head for several years, ever since I married your daddy. The last 4 years of our lives though, I wanted your daddy all to myself. About a year ago we tossed around the idea of growing our family and finally meeting you, but we decided that we would wait until my 24th birthday to start trying. Long story short, I just couldn't get you out of my mind, and we made some changes to our insurance in the summer so that we could finally meet you once and for all!
I decided to stop taking birth control then, in hopes that we would be able to meet you 9 months after the day I stopped it! But, the road to meeting you hasn't been as simple and easy as we thought it would be, although I still feel like I am getting closer to you all the time.
We just got back from a little vacation to Tennessee and Kentucky, and for the 5th time now, I have had to deal with a day of the month that I used to look forward to. I used to rejoice and be excited when my period came, because we just weren't ready to meet you yet. But now, 5 times in a row, it has been the hardest day to swallow.
I know that God is teaching us something, and preparing us for whatever it is that He is doing with our lives. We are thankful that He knows exactly how this is all going to pan out. But I'm scared. I'm just flat out scared.
- mommy
I don't even know where to begin, or if this is even a good idea, but I figured I will give it a shot. I have pictured you in my head for several years, ever since I married your daddy. The last 4 years of our lives though, I wanted your daddy all to myself. About a year ago we tossed around the idea of growing our family and finally meeting you, but we decided that we would wait until my 24th birthday to start trying. Long story short, I just couldn't get you out of my mind, and we made some changes to our insurance in the summer so that we could finally meet you once and for all!
I decided to stop taking birth control then, in hopes that we would be able to meet you 9 months after the day I stopped it! But, the road to meeting you hasn't been as simple and easy as we thought it would be, although I still feel like I am getting closer to you all the time.
We just got back from a little vacation to Tennessee and Kentucky, and for the 5th time now, I have had to deal with a day of the month that I used to look forward to. I used to rejoice and be excited when my period came, because we just weren't ready to meet you yet. But now, 5 times in a row, it has been the hardest day to swallow.
I know that God is teaching us something, and preparing us for whatever it is that He is doing with our lives. We are thankful that He knows exactly how this is all going to pan out. But I'm scared. I'm just flat out scared.
- mommy
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