Overwhelming Tears of Joy
Baby,
Today was such a good day! There have been several times since we found out about you that I have had moments of just absolutely overwhelming laughing and crying at the same time. Totally out of nowhere I will just start crying and laughing, which makes daddy laugh at me because I just cannot control this emotion of sheer joy.
Today, I had one of those moments. We decided to go shopping at the outlets today in Tennessee, and for some reason, the moment we pulled into the parking lot, I was covered in tears and laughter, and just couldn't stop. I had a memory pop into my mind. Six months ago, we were at these same outlets with Aunt Hope and Uncle Jordan. We were shopping for things here and there, and all I could picture was you, everywhere I looked. Towards the end of shopping, I took a moment to myself and went to the bathroom and had a very short pity party (I try to make them as few and far between as possible).
And now, 6 months later, at the same outlets that I had a meltdown because I didn't know if I would ever get to meet you or not, I was having a joyful meltdown because you were finally with me, in my belly. It is little moments like this that make me thankful for our wait. The joy that I am experiencing now is so much greater than it would have been if we had gotten pregnant that first month we started trying.
I am praying for your sweet little heartbeat, and toes, and fingers, and belly button, and nose, and every single little part of you. I will never be able to fully explain how much joy you have already brought me! I LOVE YOU!!
-mommy
Today was such a good day! There have been several times since we found out about you that I have had moments of just absolutely overwhelming laughing and crying at the same time. Totally out of nowhere I will just start crying and laughing, which makes daddy laugh at me because I just cannot control this emotion of sheer joy.
Today, I had one of those moments. We decided to go shopping at the outlets today in Tennessee, and for some reason, the moment we pulled into the parking lot, I was covered in tears and laughter, and just couldn't stop. I had a memory pop into my mind. Six months ago, we were at these same outlets with Aunt Hope and Uncle Jordan. We were shopping for things here and there, and all I could picture was you, everywhere I looked. Towards the end of shopping, I took a moment to myself and went to the bathroom and had a very short pity party (I try to make them as few and far between as possible).
And now, 6 months later, at the same outlets that I had a meltdown because I didn't know if I would ever get to meet you or not, I was having a joyful meltdown because you were finally with me, in my belly. It is little moments like this that make me thankful for our wait. The joy that I am experiencing now is so much greater than it would have been if we had gotten pregnant that first month we started trying.
I am praying for your sweet little heartbeat, and toes, and fingers, and belly button, and nose, and every single little part of you. I will never be able to fully explain how much joy you have already brought me! I LOVE YOU!!
-mommy
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